Two weeks from now, I will be turning 28 and I just couldn’t get any more… EMOTIONAL. I’m feeling different sorts of emotions all at the same time. Being in the late 20’s and single is kind of scary for so many reasons. Or I guess the more appropriate word would be alarming. It’s like, hey I’m almost 30! I'm nearing the deadline and I haven't started anything yet! The way I see it, it's like cramming for a project that is just impossible to finish on time. Well most likely, it's because of the notion that one is expected to be successful and happily married by the time you reach that age. Scary, right? Sorry maybe I'm just overthinking but thank goodness I still have one more birthday to go, Lord willing.
For me, birthdays have become the annual time to look back to the all the years that have gone by. New memories and experiences have been made – good ones and not-so-good ones. Relationships have been greatly challenged as some people have walked in and out of my sphere. As I look back to all those years, I couldn’t help but wonder what lies ahead. There are a lot of questions running in my mind like, have I worked hard enough career-wise? Have I been more loving and gracious to the people around me? Have I made the right decisions in terms of ministry? Have I been wasting the short time I have here on earth? Am I really where God wants me to be right now? In these times of wondering, it's easy to quote Proverbs 3:5-6 to comfort my anxious heart. But lately, I've been struggling in facing this season of my life. I’m speaking as one who has the desire to intently understand what it really means to trust the Lord as I take each step by faith. To patiently learn what it takes to wait for whatever is on the horizon. To live each day with unwavering conviction that God works all things for my good. Now, I will end by preaching Psalm 42:5 to my heart;
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